1.Do you have trouble getting up in the morning?
2. Do you have trouble opening jars?
3. Do you need help getting dressed?
These are just a few of the questions that seem to be on every medical form I fill out dealing with my arthritis. I was always able to very safely and smugly answer no, no & no! Sure I have pain, and sometimes it even lasts for a few days, and sometimes it's horrible. But it goes away or I get my infusion and I am back to normal. Normal being some pain, some fatigue & some swelling, but not enough to stop me.
Well I've been stopped. For about a month, maybe more my right foot has been in such pain. It's swollen and keeps me up at night. I can barely walk. Running? Exercise? I've worked out my whole life. If I miss 3 days in a row it's due to Christmas, vacation or an illness. It's a huge part of my life. Well I've been jaded by pain and I just don't care. I don't care that I am out of shape and it will take me months to get back to running where I was. I don't care because there's literally nothing I can do about it.
This is my life. Right now. I am seeing a specialist tomorrow with my new insurance. Why did I wait so long? I thought the pain would go away. I thought I could will it away.
I was talking a nurse a while back who said the x-rays of one of her arthritis patients looked as if all her joints had been gnawed on by rats. I hope that's not my case. I hope I haven't waited too long.
Well, that's what's going on around here. I hope I feel better very, very soon because I know 3 little kids that have been thankfully much nicer than they've been naughty (& they are naughty!!!) and we are loving the excitement and anticipation of the season.