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Thursday, December 12, 2013

Eaten Alive

1.Do you have trouble getting up in the morning?

2. Do you have trouble opening jars?

3. Do you need help getting dressed?

These are just a few of the questions that seem to be on every medical form I fill out dealing with my arthritis.  I was always able to very safely and smugly answer no, no & no!  Sure I have pain, and sometimes it even lasts for a few days, and sometimes it's horrible.  But it goes away or I get my infusion and I am back to normal.  Normal being some pain, some fatigue & some swelling, but not enough to stop me.

Well I've been stopped.  For about a month, maybe more my right foot has been in such pain.  It's swollen and keeps me up at night.  I can barely walk.  Running?  Exercise?  I've worked out my whole life.  If I miss 3 days in a row it's due to Christmas, vacation or an illness.  It's a huge part of my life.  Well I've been jaded by pain and I just don't care.  I don't care that I am out of shape and it will take me months to get back to running where I was.  I don't care because there's literally nothing I can do about it. 

This is my life.  Right now.  I am seeing a specialist tomorrow with my new insurance.  Why did I wait so long?  I thought the pain would go away.  I thought I could will it away. 

I was talking a nurse a while back who said the x-rays of one of her arthritis patients looked as if all her joints had been  gnawed on by rats.  I hope that's not my case.  I hope I haven't waited too long. 

Well, that's what's going on around here.  I hope I feel better very, very soon because I know 3 little kids that have been thankfully much nicer than they've been naughty (& they are naughty!!!)  and we are loving the excitement and anticipation of the season.

10 comments:

  1. This hurts my heart that you are in this much pain, Marie. You are the sweetest, dearest person and it kills me knowing that you've been stopped cold because you're hurting. Hugs, love and prayers!

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  2. I'm so sorry you are hurting. Lots of prayers and love being lifted your way!

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  3. Oh no :( My mom struggles with arthritis {and has for a long time}, and I'm praying that the symptoms I've been trying to ignore for the last couple of years aren't signs that I may follow in her footsteps :( Prayers that you get answers, and feel better soon!

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  4. I'm so sorry you're in so much pain. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope you get some relief soon!

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  5. My grandma has the worst arthritis any doctor says they have ever seen. The doctors tell her that they can do way more today than they could when she first started having problems 50 years ago or so. Stay positive - they should be able to help you a lot! :)

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  6. Oh no Marie. I am really sorry you are hurting. If anyone deserves to have a healthy, functioning body- it is you. Feel better soon!

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  7. Oh no Marie. I am really sorry you are hurting. If anyone deserves to have a healthy, functioning body- it is you. Feel better soon!

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  8. That sounds horrible, hope you can get some relief soon!

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  9. Hope you had a wonderful Christmas Marie! :D Hugs!

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  10. Hope they can get it under control an you will be feeling energetic again. My husband and I gave up diet soda prior to leaving for China and I can't begin to tell you how much better I am feeling. I don't feel like I am an 80 year old woman anymore. I was being killed by the crap in the soda.

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